college life,,,

what's up! I am come back!!!!!!!

well, I have not posting something here for a long time,,kyaaaa just missing time like now. I'm very busy recently that's all because I spend a lot of my time in my school. I came back from school at 6 or 7 p.m so I must finished my papers or homework first before bed time. I know it doesn't like on my high school. College life is everything what you do or take just up to you but it will be your responsibility to work them and finish it with deadline, exactly. Sometimes I stuck in the middle and I feel wanna give up. But trust me, you'll never ever feel like that if you have the willingness to get out from this situation.
I am going to college is my choice but i'm just horrified by this kind of life. I need more time to adaptation with the lectures, new friends (who I never been met before), new teachers and also new environment campuses.
Early is so hard. I never thought would be in a place like this. Various struggles that I do to enter the university seemed to just disappear. We are competing with each other although not visible but if the note is clearly very influential. As if they does not give me time to breathe for a while.
I take Chinese literature and you know I never been thought to took Chinese literature before. I decided to take it at the deadline to return the college form.
And bang!! I got it. I don't know to happy or sad at that time.lol but it's true. Honestly I'm so confused--> 'why i take it' or 'what should I do' in my mind.